Obeying Islam only when somebody criticizes

Question
Assalam u Alaikum;

today i shall describe my question in urdu, so that i can explain it easily.
" meri nature he kh mujhe agr koi kisi gunnah ke kam se mana kr de to me us se ruk jata hun agerch mujhe us gunnah ka phle se pta ho. kisi ki bat krne ke bad mujhe us gunnah ke mutaliq ALLAH {S.W} ka khof bi bhut ata he. for example music ka mujhe shuru se pta tha kh yh ghalat he per kisi ne phle mana nai kia islye sunta rha per jis din aik friend ne mana kia usi din se aj tak nai suna, is bat ko 6 month hone wale hen. pta nai meri yh adat sahi he ya ghalat?? laikin me kafi koshish ke bawajod is se chutkara nai hasil kr saka. jis gunnah se me khud rukna chahun us se itna pakka nai ruk pata jitna agr koi mujhe us se rook de tub rukta hun. mujhe khud bi lagta he kh yh adat ghalat he per lagta he yh meri nature ka hissa ban chuki he.
mera sawal yh he kh agr me apni mother ko khun kh woh mujh me agr koi gunnah ka kam daikhen to us se mujhe mana kr diya karen to kia yh sahi he kiyun kh usually yhi hota he kh parents aik certain age tak mana krte hen us ke bad bus generally khte rhte hen. laikin me chahta hun kh woh mujhe naam le kh mana karen to i believe kh me us se ruk jaon ga. kia aisa krna shai he ya gunnah se sirf apni will-power se hi ALLAH ka khof rakhte hoe rukna chahye?? "
i know it can be bit odd question but i have explained my nature to you.
May ALLAH {S.W} forgive all of us.
waiting for reply.
Jaza kaALLAH;
Answer
Wa alaikumussalam
The main thing is to obey Islam. Normally we have two ways. As a human is asked to stop doing crimes by his will power, he is also asked to say:''Labbaik!'' and accept when someone preach him. So both are different and good qualities.If u feel easy in 2nd way you may ask your mother or any one to criticize your acts clearly. similarly when you read some book, letter or Email, Imagine that the writer himself is preaching you so that you acquire the same effect u need. Mentionable thing is that you should create Islahi Ta`alluq with any renowned Sheikh, bcaz it based on the same theory.
Allah knows better